Today is the dreaded Monday, I try so hard to avoid every weekend! Why does it seem to come so fast? Anyways I am sitting at my desk feeling somewhat down. Maybe it is from the triple shot non - fat caramel macchiato (I'm addicted to Starbucks BTW), and the additional cup of coffee that has finally worn off?
Some how while that may be part of the case, I think I am just bored with my life. I'm bored with my job, and bored with Orlando. I really want to move home to MD, I just do not want to go without a job ya know? I want to prove to my oh so co - dependent family that I CAN make it without them, and I am not going to go back to my old ways! If I go back there now, part of me just knows that my family will be judging me saying " look at Maggie, going back to So. MD, going back to all her dead beat ways"! This is not the case though. Yes I needed to move four years ago, but I've changed now. What should one do when they are single,and their responsibilities are school, a dog, a cat, and some credit card bills. Should I just say what the heck and just move? Or should I wait to get a good job? If a good job does not open up in this market, do I settle for working as a server again? Or do I say God doesn't want me to move? But then wouldn't God just want what makes me happy? If I am not happy living here is it truly God's will for me to continue to live here? These are the thoughts in my mind today, I know it probably sounds a bit crazy. Any ideas or thought feel free to share.
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